Chapter 15 Getting by in life

　　Firecrackers sound of the old year, after the zero hour, in all directions came the sound of fireworks, exceptionally lively, but also exceptionally dense, originally only sparse movement at this time to produce the momentum of the sky. 　　Zhou Ze blew his nails, outside the hustle and bustle, and he has little to do with him, he has no home, although now nominally, there is a "home", but he does not want to go back. 　　A lot of people have a thought when they are alive, that is, if they can be reborn to return, how to how. 　　The words are so exciting, and the words are so powerful, and the earth is so full of shit. 　　But really come back from hell, you will suddenly realize that their previous kind of pursuit, that kind of idea, that kind of vision, just like going to kindergarten when the teacher asked: children want to do when they grow up? 　　Then the children answered together: scientists, doctors, astronauts, soldiers ...... 　　Dreams are always full. 　　And the reality, talk about how bone, but a person's chicken blood, destined to be limited. 　　Sometimes, can breathe, can hear the sound, can sit here to grind, wasting time. 　　This is, perhaps, the real quiet years. 　　Xu Qinglang still sleeps in the store tonight, and Zhou Ze heard the sound of him closing the store door. 　　He said he has more than 20 suites, but Zhou Ze knows that his parents are in the store. 　　A family, it's all about being neat and tidy. 　　This New Year's Eve, naturally, is even more important. 　　Outside the house, it began to rain, a little bit of moisture began to penetrate, making people feel a little depressed. 　　Zhou Ze's cell phone rang, it was his aunt-in-law's call. 　　"Hello." Zhou Ze answered the phone. 　　"Are you asleep?" Dr. Lin asked. 　　Zhou Ze thought that was an idiotic thing to ask. 　　Who answered your call when I was asleep? 　　Could it be a dead person ...... oh no, is it a dead ghost? 　　No, there seems to be something wrong. 　　Zhou Ze's body leaned back slightly in his chair, and in his mind's eye, Dr. Lin took his finger and gently poked his chest, calling out to himself, "You dead ghost ......" 　　For the first time, it felt like, truth be told, Karma could be so dazzling. 　　Perhaps too bored, or perhaps purely idle. 　　Zhou Ze realized that his thoughts were a little scattered now. 　　Thinking, a little too much. 　　"No." Zhou Ze replied. 　　"Squeak ......" 　　Dr. Lin pushed open the door to the store and walked in, holding a red umbrella, wearing leather pants underneath, a white sweater on top, and her hair cascading over her shoulders. 　　Zhou Ze forgot to put down the phone for a moment and 　　This woman. 　　Was indeed very beautiful. 　　Especially her temperament, always gives you a feeling that life is like the first time you see her, and in a flash, pierces the man's heart. 　　"Afraid I'll be lonely and cold alone?" Zhou Ze stood up and poured a cup of water for Dr. Lin. 　　She was the hostess here. 　　Hmm. 　　To be exact, the money Xu Le took to open this bookstore was still taken from her family. 　　Dr. Lin took the water, shook her head, and didn't say anything. 　　The two people, who were husband and wife, but in reality, were similar to the most familiar strangers, were in a position that was even more awkward than that of a blue-faced bosom friend. 　　Want to go further, difficult; 　　Wanting to take a step back, even harder. 　　"Go out for a walk." Zhou Ze felt that the house was a bit dull, and it was impossible for him to invite Dr. Lin to his sleeping place on the second floor. 　　Even if Dr. Lin had taken the wrong medication today and planned to feed a tiger with his body, but seeing the freezer on his second floor, he would probably immediately dial the number of a familiar psychiatric hospital to send himself in for a good makeover. 　　"It's raining." Dr. Lin said. 　　"Light rain, it's fine." Zhou Ze waved his hand, idle and relaxed. 　　...... 　　"Clatter, clatter, clatter ......" 　　It was raining heavily, and it was huge. 　　Before even the umbrella did not take thinking about experiencing a spring rain as expensive as oil Zhou Ze was almost drenched into a soup chicken, Dr. Lin is still holding an umbrella, standing on the side, Zhou Ze refused its proposal to share an umbrella. 　　The force of their own installation, with tears, but also have to finish the installation. 　　Pat the wet hair, Zhou Ze shivered, he is not very afraid of the cold, he is actually very resistant to freezing, just its side of the woman even if the umbrella did not get wet, but still shivering slightly. 　　The bus stop could block most of the rain. 　　But the cold wind at night can still be unscrupulous. 　　A little bit of love, a little bit of love. 　　Men and women together. 　　Rainy night, wet body. 　　A beautiful woman. 　　This should have been a good opportunity for both sides to cultivate feelings, a good opportunity, and even, rubbing guns together plus Hanafuda made a mistake in the last shot in the put are possible things, but the two are relatively speechless. 　　Zhou Ze lit a cigarette, Dr. Lin stood next to it. 　　One wants to escape, one itself is resistant, naturally can not go together. 　　The melon that is twisted by force, the melon and the vine, are not twisted. 　　Zhou Ze in the bottom of his heart some blame Xu Le, if that goat after the wedding once overbearing, there is no broken thing now, even if Dr. Lin thought that the human woman or already pregnant with a child, it is estimated to be gorgeous, and can even add some more points. 　　I can also push the boat with the water, where need now this kind of in and out of the dilemma. 　　Of course, this kind of complaint is quite unfair to Xu Le, if Zhou Ze himself that night to dominate the bow, it is hard to believe that Dr. Lin will fight back desperately screaming "molestation"? And then call the police to send Zhou Ze to the Public Security Bureau? Charge him with rape? 　　It's still raining. 　　Zhou Ze threw his cigarette on the ground. 　　"Did you drive here?" 　　"Took a taxi." Dr. Lin replied. 　　"I'll take you back." 　　"Uh-huh." 　　There was no need to dwell on how this seemingly silly and innocent New Year's Eve rainy night trek had begun. 　　At least, the immediate duo felt it was most appropriate to end it at this point. 　　Calling an online taxi, Zhou Ze and Dr. Lin sat in it together. 　　A quarter of an hour later, it arrived, and Zhou Ze accompanied Dr. Lin out of the car, and the owner settled the bill and drove off directly. 　　Home, was upstairs, but Zhou Ze and Dr. Lin did not choose to go straight up. 　　This scene, a bit like middle school couples return to the girl's home downstairs in the evening in company, the following should be separated, lingering, you and me. 　　But at this time, the atmosphere, not yet as strong as the youthful middle school, like a broth without salt and MSG, tasteless to eat, but a pity to splash it. 　　"You're not going up?" Dr. Lin asked. 　　"Not going up, wait for a while, then say it, let's take care of our business." 　　Dr. Lin understood Zhou Ze's implication and said, "I'm sorry." 　　Zhou Ze smiled, then reached out, originally wanting to pat Dr. Lin's shoulder, but after placing his hand on it, he suddenly had some impulse to embrace the other party anyway. 　　Dr. Lin's body stiffened for a moment, but did not resist. 　　The two were slightly closer, but it wasn't much of an intimate action, compared to the identity connection between the two, it could already be said to be very outgoing. 　　On her body, she smelled quite good, and she didn't know which body wash she used in the shower, in short, it smelled good. 　　"Always curious about one thing, in your heart, is there someone else?" Zhou Ze added, "That someone else, can refer to either male or female." 　　"Right." Dr. Lin was very honest, and even answered, without hesitation. 　　Before, her own husband had been cowering, making her intolerant. 　　Right now, her own husband seemed to have changed into a different person, which also made her throw away some of her baggage. 　　"Oh." Zhou Ze responded, glancing upwards slightly to see if a specific protective color had appeared above his head or not. 　　There was still some loss of 　　Can't talk about love. 　　Can't say much about liking. 　　Barely even familiar. 　　But she, no matter what, was a woman who belonged to her in name only, and as a result, she was still green. 　　Well, as long as the man. 　　No. 　　As long as it is a male. 　　Shouldn't be too happy when encountering this kind of thing. 　　"I'm sorry." This was the second time he said sorry. 　　Zhou Ze let go of his hand, and the two of them slowly separated. 　　"Saying sorry is out of line." Zhou Ze sat down against the stone pier next to him, the rain was already small, and there was a small roof here. 　　"I will give you another sum of money, you can go and open another bookstore." After Dr. Lin finished speaking, he added, "I'm sorry." 　　Zhou Ze had wanted to magnanimously wave his hand and say, Money I don't care about. 　　But thinking about his own freezer, thinking about his future life... 　　Zhou Ze suddenly felt that there was something he couldn't say. 　　In case. 　　What if. 　　What if this woman took it seriously and felt that giving money was an insult to herself, so she really didn't give money to compensate? 　　"Let's talk again in a few days." Zhou Ze shrugged, "That guy, how is he?" 　　"He's very handsome, in my opinion." Dr. Lin replied. 　　It's a male. 　　Poke. 　　Another stab. 　　It's a female it's still a bit more acceptable ...... 　　Zhou Ze felt as if the intensity of photosynthesis in the top of his head had gotten a little stronger. 　　"No chance, huh?" Zhou Ze asked a very stupid question, and after asking himself, he regretted it, but was still comforting himself, I'm asking this from poor Xu Le. 　　Occupying someone's body, now that the person's wife has split up, you have to help ask why, right? 　　Well, that's how it is. 　　"No chance." Dr. Lin answered still quickly and surely. 　　This woman is also a surgeon, the style of speaking, it is really dry and crisp, like taking a scalpel, the knife cuts into the key parts, never dragging it out. 　　Otherwise, it was the patient who suffered more, and emotionally, it seemed to be the same thing. 　　"OK OK, than not than not, all right, everyone day each over their own, you go back to deal with your parents." Zhou Ze was a little distracted. 　　Dr. Lin nodded and turned to walk into the building. 　　Zhou Ze stood up and prepared to take a taxi to leave, but at this moment, an unfamiliar phone call came: 　　"Hello." 　　"Sir, my car is back." 　　"So smart?" Zhou Ze was a little surprised, he could hear that it was the voice of the driver from before. 　　"You guys left a bag on the back seat, I'll bring it back to you." 　　"Oh, thanks." 　　That car drove down to the neighborhood again, and from the window, the driver handed out a ladies' bag. 　　"You order it." 　　"Good." 　　Zhou Ze was not polite and opened Dr. Lin's bag, which contained just a cell phone and a wallet as well as data charging cables and a few packs of tissues. 　　Taking out the wallet, Zhou Ze just flipped it open and froze. 　　His eyes were fixed on the place where the wallet stored photos. 　　There was a photo there. 　　The woman in the photo appeared young, even a little ...... tender, wearing an ill-fitting white coat. 　　And the man on the right side of the girl, Zhou Ze had some unfamiliar familiarity. 　　After freezing for a while. 　　Zhou Ze only recognized that 　　This is not himself. 　　This was a cropped photo, it should have been a group photo, but it had been cropped separately into a group photo of two people. 　　"Is there anything missing?" The driver urged. 　　"Nothing, thank you master, you can go now." 　　The driver drove off. 　　Zhou Ze continued to hold the wallet and look at it, he didn't even think that at this point he should give Dr. Lin a call to say that he would come down to get the bag. 　　Some not quite dusty, but sort of not really caring memories began to surface, the 　　Vaguely remembering. 　　Five or six years ago, he seemed to have taken a group of students who were still in school and assigned to internships, and there was a girl who seemed to have the surname Lin, and, with the girl on the photo, it seemed that her appearance could also overlap. 　　The girl has changed a lot. 　　The corner of Zhou Ze's mouth revealed a smile. 　　Dr. Lin also had such a dull and cute time back then, who knew that after five or six years, she had actually grown to be so beautiful, he really didn't notice the girl's nurturing potential at all. 　　Moreover, at that time, I was very perfunctory to the hospital to let myself take interns, these students in their side is purely used as a "medical dog" use. 　　Zhou Ze shook the wallet in his hand. 　　"Damn, you deserve to be single even though you're almost thirty years old." 　　This time, I was surprised that I wasn't scolding Xu Le, but I was scolding myself. 　　He was cursing himself. 　　"Eyes. 　　Is really blind ah ......" 　　Zhou Ze opened his hand and stretched a lazy waist. 　　The one who cuckolded himself. 　　I'm actually still myself. 　　It's the first day of the year after the rain. 　　Hey. 　　Look at the sky. 　　Very solemnly reached out and patted his chest. 　　Zhou Ze paused and 　　Very solemnly: 　　"Xu Le, you are truly my good brother! 　　I will raise your wife on my own, so don't worry about it."