Chapter 4 The Good Man

　　The carriage left the palace gate and drove to the road back to the mansion. The carriage swayed slightly, and the layers of embroidered curtains cut off the light from the sky outside. 　　I couldn't see anything in the darkness, and the weak light couldn't illuminate the coldness of the day. 　　When I left, I wiped away my tears, straighten my posture, in the eyes of my aunt to send, in a calm and proud posture step by step out of the East Palace, through the palace gate, step on the carriage, only one thought in my mind: can not flow out of the tears, can not be shameful weakness ...... until the curtains down, the dark shadows closed in, and finally I was left alone. Stiff and tense body can no longer be controlled, the powerful and chilling force, overwhelmed me. 　　I softly crouch in the brocade pile of sheep in the car, supporting me out of the palace door of the last bit of will also completely collapsed. 　　My mind was blank, my mind was dazed, as if I had fallen into a fog, I couldn't see my surroundings, I couldn't catch everything. Even though I was already far away from the palace, my aunt's words still lingered clearly in my ears. 　　Sentence by sentence, word by word, like a blade carved into the heart, both painful and deep. 　　I clasped my hands and pinched my nails into my palms - even this sharp pain could not wash away the drowning-like suffocation in my heart. 　　I gasped deeply, still breathless, like I was drowning in the infinite darkness. 　　I climbed on the heavy curtain, used all my strength to lift it, light suddenly pierced into the eyes - the roadside crowd of people fighting to see the carriage issued a cry of alarm and clamor. 　　From the front came the sound of the guards raising their whips to clear the way, calling out for expulsion. 　　The crowd boiled and surged towards me like a tidal wave, just to take a look at the Lord of Shangyang County, who suddenly raised the curtain in the carriage, even willing to be beaten by the guards' long whips. However, the guards on both sides of the solemn ceremonies, even crowded to the front, may not be able to see my face. 　　But they still scrambled to be the first, crowded to the nearer men, struggling to push away from the people in front of them - tiptoe foot and head, as crazy as crazy. 　　A man who has never seen a single finger of me, for whom is he so crazy, just for the name "Lord Shangyang", for the name of the daughter of the Wang family? I want to laugh, want to let them see clearly - see, the eldest princess and the left minister's daughter, flowing with the royal family and Wang's blood, the world-famous family's daughter, is such a desperate and helpless appearance, wearing a hairpin crown, wearing a palace dress, maintaining a ridiculous noble, walking on the road that they do not know where to go. 　　They can not see, the world's eyes only see the carriage brilliant heraldic colorful ornaments, only see my towering shadow. 　　Who I am, whether I am beautiful or ugly, whether I cry or laugh, not that anyone cares. 　　If I do not surnamed Wang, if not born in such a family, at this moment will not sit in a high carriage, by people to see ...... perhaps I will be like that flower girl, crowded in the crowd on tiptoe to look, or a maid, followed the carriage, let the dust stained clothes. 　　I was born in the workshop as a flower seller, or born as a Wang's daughter, was not my choice, but ultimately by me to undertake. 　　In the midst of the clamor, I gripped the curtain and lifted the entire drape, letting the light shine into the carriage without any obstruction. 　　The crowd suddenly quieted down. 　　I emerged from the brocade enclosure, awakened from a great dream, and saw the true face of the world's sorrows and joys under this glorious autumn sun. 　　A louder cry broke out from the crowd, and the overwhelming clamor almost annihilated me. 　　The attendants shooed the crowd forward, and the maids of honor drew the curtains in panic, hiding me again in the deep darkness. 　　I fell back onto the soft brocade cushions and leaned against the wall of the cart, smiling with my eyes closed, but not even a single tear escaped my eyes. 　　I don't know how I got home, or how I walked in, but in my trance I only thought of my mother. 　　At this moment, I only want to see her. 　　From the front court to the inner hall, a short distance, I walked for so long, walking so difficult. 　　When I reached my mother's room, I didn't see her face, but I heard her crying. 　　The ever-groomed and gentle mother was crying so mournfully, as if tearing her heart out. 　　I held Jin'er's hand, only felt the ground under my feet sinking, the world slightly shaking, but the whole person like to float up, looking at the familiar courtyard, familiar door, but did not have the courage to take half a step. 　　Clang a crack, startled me a shudder. 　　Mother's beloved double carp celadon vase was thrown out of the door, fell to pieces, accompanied by her sad voice. 　　"What kind of father are you, what kind of chancellor are you!" 　　"Jinruo, as the eldest princess, you should know that this is a matter of state, not a family matter." 　　My father's voice was pale and feeble. 　　I stopped walking and stood in the doorway, motionless. 　　The sleeve of my coat was held by Jin'er, and a slight tremor came from it, I looked sideways, the tiny girl was frightened. 　　I tried to give her a calming smile, but instead I saw my own face in her dark, ham-fisted eyes, paler and more dismal than hers. 　　Mother's voice hoarse mournful, the old grace is lost, "what princess, what state affairs, I only know I am a mother! As a parent, who doesn't love their children more than their own personal interests? Could it be that you are not A Charming's father, don't you feel any pain?" 　　"It's not self-interest!" Father's voice rose abruptly. 　　A moment of cold silence, the father's voice lowered, tired and hoarse, "This is not my personal self-interest, I have already reached the rank of Chancellor, what other positions of power can be chased ...... Jinruo, you are the mother, the princess, I am A Charming's father, and I am also the head of the Wang Clan's family, and the head of the scholarly clan." 　　His voice was also trembling slightly, "You and I, not only have a daughter, a family, but also a country! Ah Chui's marriage is not just you and I marrying our daughters, it's a marriage between the Wang Clan, and even the Shi Clan and the powerful generals!" 　　"Letting my daughter marry and enlist the hearts of the military, but what have you all done?" Mother asked this sentence poignantly, piercing my heart like a needle - yes, Mother, this is what I wanted to ask the most. 　　You are the Empress and the Chancellor, yet why did you ask me, a fifteen year old girl, to do what neither the Empress nor the Chancellor could do? 　　Father did not answer for a long time - silence, silence that took my breath away. 　　I thought that my father would not answer, but I heard his deep and feeble voice, "Do you think that today's scholars are still the same as they were back then, and that today's world is still as peaceful as it was back then?" 　　This voice is so old, is it really my father's voice? When did my father, who was so handsome and majestic, become so old and powerless? 　　"You were born in the palace, married into the palace, all you see and hear is full of embroidery, but Jinruo, is it true that you never know, the court has been suffering from disease for a long time, the power of the military outside the fall, the civil unrest in all four directions, when what a prosperous family, now long ago the scenery is no longer ...... You also saw the Xie family and the Gu family lost, which family did not have the power to cover the sky, and the world is still as peaceful as before. Which family has not had the power to cover the sky, which family does not have the royal family in-laws? Do you think that the Wang family has become so prominent that only Ah Chui has paid the price? Over the years, I've worked very hard to maintain and maneuver, but without King Qingyang's prestige in the military, the Emperor may not have been able to make up his mind to establish the Crown Prince, and the Wang Clan may not have been able to defeat the Xie Clan." 　　Father's words, like ice water poured down from the head, will freeze me. 　　King Qingyang, a man who had been dead for five years, hearing his name still shook me. 　　This name used to be a symbol of royal military might. 　　My two aunts, one was the Empress and the other was the Princess of Qingyang. 　　Just a little aunt died very early, I am still young, only a few memories of her; uncle Qingyang Wang long in the army, in my impression, is a dignified old man. When he died, I was only ten years old, I only remember the forbidden soldiers, all for him to change the white tassel for mourning. 　　"Since the death of King Qingyang, the power of the royal family and the clans in the army has collapsed, and there is no one left to take over." 　　Father's voice was sad and helpless. 　　After those seven long years of fighting, no one from the scholarly clan who admired the elegance of the scribes and their peaceful nature was willing to join the military anymore. 　　They only loved to sing at night, poems and wine, and had nothing to do all their lives, but they also had the same hereditary rank and salary. 　　Those who stayed in the army and fought in the war, only the common people of the cold clan were left, and with their flesh and blood, they fought hard to make a name for themselves, and they were no longer the contemptible martial artists of the past. Now Yuzhang Wang Xiao Qi rose step by step, military might is still better than Qingyang Wang years. 　　"Once upon a time, the children of the cold clan can never hope to obtain merit, the scholarly clan is born noble, centrifugal, difficult to continue ...... Nowadays, the scholarly clan is in decline, the children are weak, where there are still available soldiers and generals, look at the high gate in the capital, you see who can go into battle to kill the enemy? There is no cold clan of martial artists to sell their lives, there is no Xiao Qi to conquer the internal and external enemies, this world has long been in chaos! The Emperor has been giving him more titles and even made him a king. If he doesn't get them, how can they be willing to serve the Son of Heaven? Even if he asked to marry a princess, the Emperor would allow him to do so!" 　　Father hissed, can not see his expression, but also can feel his pain. 　　Mother can no longer speak, only long sobbing, like a broken liver. 　　Her cries will be my heart tightly gripped, as if by an invisible hand tightly grasping, slowly tearing. 　　Father said in a deep voice, "Jinruo, you do not really do not understand, just refuse to believe." 　　Mother let out a wail, "No, I don't believe it!" 　　I couldn't stand it any longer, and gritting my teeth, I was about to push the door open. 　　But suddenly heard my brother's voice from behind me, "Father, using a woman's marriage to consolidate the family's position of power is not what a great man does!" 　　I looked back in shock, my brother had been standing behind me. 　　His handsome face was as pale as paper, but his gaze fixedly crossed me, and his wide sleeves flew as he walked past me towards his parents. 　　I panicked and reached out to stop him, my fingertips were brushed by the corner of his sleeve, and when I wanted to call out to him, I couldn't get a sound out of my withered throat. 　　Without thinking, I chased him into the room, and when I looked up, my eyes were blurred with tears, so I couldn't see my parents' expressions. 　　My brother lifted the hem of his coat and knelt long and straight, "Father, I wish to join the army!" 　　I was shocked. 　　Father stood there, chest beard slightly trembling, upright and magnificent body for a moment as if hunched down. 　　Mother swayed and fell limply into a chair. 　　I ran to her, opened my arms and held her soft body tightly in my arms. 　　Her beautiful eyes widened and she looked fixedly at me and then at my brother, her lips trembling uncontrollably. 　　Father raised his hand and pointed at my brother, wanting to say something, but for a long time unable to speak. 　　Always fear of father's majesty of brother, head high and look directly at his father's anger, do not give in, "the honor of the family and the country is a man's business, do not have to sacrifice a woman's life! Please let my son join the army, although my son is incompetent, I would like to act as the King of Qingyang and guard the border for a long time!" 　　"Nonsense!" Father was so angry that he raised his palm. 　　My mother violently broke away from me, stepped forward and tugged on my father's sleeve, tilted her head back and cut her teeth, coldly saying, "Whether it's you or the Emperor's decree, whoever takes away my son or daughter, I will die in front of him." 　　The father stood stiff as a stone, reddening the corners of his eyes, his raised palms shivering in gusto. 　　"My daughter is willing to marry King Yuzhang as her wife!" 　　I uttered these words with all my strength, my knees softened, and I knelt heavily towards my parents. 　　My brother looked up suddenly and called out in disbelief, "Ah Charming!" 　　Father turned his head to look at me, like he didn't recognize his daughter. 　　The color of my mother's face faded in an instant as she looked straight at me and asked in a murmuring voice, "What did you say?" 　　I bit my lip and straightened my body, "My daughter has admired King Yuzhang for a long time, it is my daughter's wish to marry a heroic man, please fulfill my parents' wishes." 　　Mother stepped forward half a step, close to me, and asked extremely slowly and lowly, "Who did you say you want to marry?" 　　I took a deep breath, "I would like to marry King Xiao Qi of Yuzhang as my wife." 　　Crisp ringing in my ears, hot on my cheeks, a sharp pain caused my eyes to darken - it was my mother's slap with all her strength, slapping me to the ground. 　　I was lying on the cold, hard ground, feeling that the sky was spinning, and the figures in front of my eyes were shaking and confused. 　　My brother picked me up and held me in his arms, using his chest as my support. 　　My mother cried and struggled in my father's hands, calling out my name, "Ah Charming, you're crazy, you're all crazy ......" 　　I was not crazy. 　　I leaned in my brother's arms, but my heart was surprisingly silent, and my mind was even clearer about what I was doing. 　　I tilted my face up to my brother and smiled faintly, "Brother, Ah Charming didn't do anything wrong, right?" 　　Tear drops rolled out from my brother's eyes and fell onto my face. 　　He didn't answer, his hands holding me became colder, but he also held me tighter. 　　I buried my face in his chest and closed my eyes. 　　Mother, no longer able to struggle, was supported by her maid and fell back into her chair in a weakened state, hiding her face and sobbing. 　　My father came over and bent down, his eyes full of sorrow, and reached out to caress my flaming cheek, "Does it hurt?" 　　I turned my head sideways and avoided his hand, unwilling to be touched by him, unwilling to be touched by anyone else. 　　The decree of giving the marriage was issued on a certain day, and the whole family knelt down to welcome and thank the grace. 　　King Yuzhang's marriage to County Lord Shangyang became a sensational event in the imperial capital. 　　Those who came to congratulate the king said that the king was a great hero, and the princess said that she was a woman of unrivaled virtue and beauty. 　　Who doesn't love to see heroes and beauties, who doesn't envy fairy couples, everyone envied this golden marriage, a match made in heaven. 　　No one mentioned Zi Tan again, as if overnight they had all forgotten that they had also said that His Highness and Sheriff Lord Shangyang were the best match for each other. 　　I guess I should have forgotten too. 　　It turned out that it was not my destiny, and the heavens had already cut off my destiny with Zi Tan, but I was unaware of it. And now, I finally understand, the marriage is not about my business, not about his business, only about the family court business. Only the interests of the same, no need to match the family, and even more so, no need to love each other. 　　Then, with whom a lifetime together, are no different, nothing to be happy, nothing to be sad. 　　Yuzhang Wangfei, or any other Wangfei, as far as I'm concerned, there is nothing wrong. 　　I don't care what they think or say. 　　Father, mother, brother, everyone said a lot of things to me, I vaguely remember, and vaguely do not remember. 　　The Emperor and the Empress summoned me, and what they said, I don't remember much either. 　　King Yuzhang's bride price was very generous, worthy of his and my status. The rewards bestowed by the palace were also overwhelming. The dowry given to me by the Empress was carried in an endless stream for three days in a row: a wedding gown, a phoenix crown, exotic treasures - a dazzling array of treasures that crowded the palace like a mountain of treasures. It's been a long time since there was such a grand celebration in the capital, and last year's wedding of the second prince didn't see such lavish arrangements. 　　Sister Wanru came to see me and congratulated me as the Crown Princess. When the maids of honor were dismissed and we were left alone, she cried. 　　"Zi Tan doesn't know that you've been given in marriage." She wept miserably. 　　"Sooner or later, I will know." I lowered my gaze and spoke calmly. 　　So what if I knew, if I could, I would have preferred that he had married someone else first, rather than me marrying someone else. 　　Sister Wanru opened the jade box, inside was the dowry she had given me, a phoenix hairpin from a world renowned craftsman, encrusted with thousand year old shark beads, so beautiful that it took one's breath away, "This phoenix hairpin, I had originally wanted to personally put it in your bun when you and Zitan got married." 　　She choked on her words. 　　I looked at the hairpin for a long time, in front of my eyes appeared in my imagination, Zi Tama and my wedding scene, such as a mirage, a beautiful moment. 　　Closing the jade box, I faintly said, "Thank you, sister, this phoenix hairpin, it is better to leave it to his future princess." 　　She shook her head, took the phoenix hairpin in her hand to scrutinize, said sadly: "Whoever you change, it's not you." 　　I choked, a long time, forced a smile, "Perhaps that is a better person." 　　She also watering words. 　　Looked at her more and more thin and thin appearance, remembered the young smile of her, since entering the Eastern Palace has become increasingly lonesome, a moment of pathos in the heart, I asked off the cuff: "Sister, why is it that when I was a child, I longed for, and grew up to get is always different? Why even good playmates have to be separated, one by one, they all go far away, their own way, the south is the other way?" 　　Wanyu sister can't answer, raised her eyes, a pair of tearful eyes looked at me, "Are you really voluntarily married to Yuzhang Wang?" 　　"Is not voluntary and what difference." I pursed my lips, forcibly suppressed the sadness and acidity in my chest, lowered my eyes and smiled, "I and Zi Tantan ultimately have no destiny ...... Yuzhang Wang is a heroic man, married him, is also good." 　　Let Sister Wanru take it as if I am willing, so that everyone in the world will know of my willingness and know of my negative feelings. 　　Zitama will know my words from her. 　　Zitama will resent me, will be annoyed with me, and then will forget me. 　　Zitama will register a consort and will marry a beautiful and virtuous princess. 　　Zitama will be in love with her, and we will spend a long time together until we grow old. 　　Zi Tantan, Zi Tantan, Zi Tantan ...... The sky is spinning, and the sky is filled with his name and his face. 　　Tangled strands of pain, not sharp and not sharp, but slowly in the bottom of the heart to the deepest and softest place, blotting out the dull pain of depression. 　　"Then, congratulations to the county princess on her great joy." 　　Sister Wanru's tears condensed in her eyes, raised her wrist and inserted that phoenix hairpin between my hair, looked into my eyes and smiled a cool smile. 　　After that, until the wedding, sister Wanru did not come to see me again. 　　The wedding date is very close. 　　Yuzhang Wang can not stay in the capital, but also to return to Ningshuo, guarding the northern border, Turkic people in the north is moving. 　　After the wedding, I will still stay in the palace of King Yuzhang in the imperial capital, and he will go back to his camp in the north. 　　As far as I am concerned, maybe it is just a change of residence, from my home to his royal residence, and the time when I will see this person will not be too much, as long as I endure through the big wedding, after that night ...... endure a little bit and then everything will be over, this is what Aunt Xu said to me. 　　She and the sisters in the palace began to teach me those things that a newly married woman needs to know. 　　This is what my mother should have taught me, but she was so angry and sick that she refused to do so, and even closed her door to me, not to mention my father and aunt. 　　My marriage was not altered in the slightest by her persistent, ineffectual resistance - everything was prepared as usual. 　　I, the bride-to-be, was exhausted just learning the rituals before and after the wedding. 　　Mornings and evenings slipped by in a chaotic rush. 　　I waited for my wedding date like a prisoner waiting for his execution. 　　I knew that Zi Tan would not appear, but I couldn't help but fantasize that he would suddenly come to me and take me far away....... It was only my dream, a dream that had woken me up one night with a smile on my face. 　　I dreamed of Zitama only this once, but I dreamed of another person three times. 　　The person in my dream, distant and vague, but with an exceptionally clear name, Xiao Qi ...... could not see his figure, never saw his face, but there was treating the army that glimpse, lingering in front of my eyes. He was in my dream, once around the blood, once turned into a giant, once steered the horse to me, each time I woke up in a cold sweat, stayed until dawn. 　　Xiao Qi, this name, will be with me for the rest of my life. 　　From now on, I will no longer be the county princess of Shangyang, but will take on the new identity of the princess of Yuzhang, and a man I have never met before will go to an unknown life. 　　The day I came out of the pavilion, the city to see. 　　The wedding according to the ritual of the princess, half past midnight to start makeup, combed Heping broad bun, hairpin plus step rocker, embroidered clothes yellow ribbon. 　　Before dawn to the parents kneeling grace resignation, and then into the palace to thank the grace, the yellow door declared the decree, boarding the moped out of the palace, the bells and drums sounded. 　　The ceremonial battle over the laying of a hundred brocade tents, red raw silk mantle, cui feather treasure cover, six hundred palace guards before and after the six phoenix carriage, I rode on the top of the treasure, winding like a long dragon, all the way to the sprinkling of gold flower petals, flying the sky broken red. 　　My body wedding dress like an embroidered heavy armor to suppress me. And my head phoenix crown is more than a hundred south sea pearls to gold silk, point cui painted color, plus emerald celluloid, gold silk phoenix wings even the two sideburns beads, forehead hanging beads, long hairpin after the crown, heavy cover my eyes, so that I can only hang his head and convergence, hidden in their own hands held by the acacia group fan behind. 　　I could not see the end of the ceremonial procession of welcoming the bride. 　　I was thus sent to the Yuzhang royal residence. 　　In a state of confusion, I was guided through the tedious and trivial etiquette: kneeling, rising, walking, entering and exiting - scrupulously strict, but not too much, and the already tired body seemed not to be my own. 　　Fan covered my face, powder to cover my tired. 　　The fan covers my face, and the powder covers my tiredness. 　　A lace fan separates the center, but the fan, to wait until the couple is alone in the bridal chamber. 　　The man appeared in front of me, I still can not see him, he also can not see my appearance. 　　Only from the bottom of the fan to see the hem of his uniform with the dragon pattern and the tip of the boots, through the fan shadows see, he has a very tall height, standing upright and high - when I saw from afar, has shocked me fear of people, now close at hand, became my husband, in the eyes of the capital of the public ministers, and I bowed and bowed, and the white head of the vow. 　　This world fear as God and the devil's people, suddenly broke into my life, this moment is finally so close to me. 　　It turned out that he was also a mortal of flesh and blood. 　　I am no longer afraid. 　　Instead of being afraid, it is better to be frank. 　　In the bridal chamber, I sat down and waited for my son-in-law to enter the room and perform the fm radio ceremony. 　　The sound of bamboo and silk music was carried from the outside into the inner courtyard, and the banquet went on late into the night. 　　The bridesmaids and servants surrounded me, each making auspicious speeches, and the tedious rituals seemed endless. 　　I am tired and weary, supporting the weight of the crown and gown, hoping that this night will pass quickly. 　　In a few moments, I will be facing the most apprehensive hour of my life. But when I thought of that person - all of a sudden, my heart tightened, and all my tiredness disappeared. 　　I forced myself to pull myself together, do not want to be so condemned on the wedding night, in front of that person to show weakness. When I raised my gaze, I saw the bridesmaids whispering to each other, as if there was something unusual. 　　I was stunned for a moment, I finally realized that the joyful music outside, do not know when to stop. 　　I looked to Jin'er, who was accompanying me. 　　She was also full of confusion, and quietly said, "Sheriff, don't worry, slave girl go out and take a look." 　　"And wait a moment." 　　I shook my head and waited for a few more moments, getting up and wanting to remove the heavy phoenix crown. 　　The bridesmaids were busy stopping me, in the middle of discouraging me, I heard hurried footsteps coming from outside the door, and a maid called "county princess, county princess", barged straight in, owed me a careless bow, and was in such a hurry that her manners were gone. 　　I frowned to see, is the mother's side of the maid of honor, in the mansion service for many years, is not unseen, what happened can teach her to mess like this? Her face was as colorful as dirt, she opened her mouth to say, "Sheriff, it's not good, the Eldest Princess fainted in shock and anger!" 　　"What happened to mother?" I was shocked. 　　"Only because, only because ...... Yuzhang Wang ......" The maid trembled and said, "Yuzhang Wang Fang just above the wedding hall, received the military report, the Turkic army violated the border, he ...... He took off his wedding clothes on the spot, and left the capital overnight to go on a campaign! 　　I thought I heard wrong, "You mean, King Yuzhang wants to go?" 　　The maid trembled and nodded, her voice not daring to come out. 　　I stood frozen for a moment, my mind blank. 　　The bridesmaids were shocked and looked at each other, and the cave room was suddenly dead silent. 　　Dramatic changes occurred, the spring night was broken. 　　I have never seen the bridegroom to go away, abandoned the bridal chamber, everyone was shocked by this change of mind, all of them were silent. 　　On the night of the wedding, my son-in-law did not even set foot in the bridal chamber, but was about to leave. 　　I didn't even know his face and voice, so I was left in the bridal chamber and spent my wedding night alone. 　　What to leave the capital to go on a journey, even if the Turkic violation of the border, a hundred thousand urgent, face to face to say goodbye and how much time can be used? 　　Even if the military situation is like fire, it may not be worse than a moment and a half. 　　The king of Yuzhang, it is his own request to marry the daughter of the Wang Clan, to be married to my family. 　　No matter what he wants, no matter in don't care, it's always him who wants to marry. 　　I begged and pleaded, but in return I was so humiliated. 　　A military situation urgent summons, he whisked his sleeve away, even perfunctory work are not lazy to spend. 　　I don't care if he cavorts with me or not, I don't care if he cares about my face or not, but I will never tolerate anyone humiliating my parents and belittling my family. 　　I stood up, threw down my face-covering fan, and headed straight for the door. 　　The bridesmaids stopped me, some called the princess, some called the county princess, have fallen on their knees, screaming that the wedding ceremony has not yet completed, can not go out of the cave, in the ritual is not good, the impact of unlucky. 　　I was suddenly angry, whisked his sleeve and shouted: "All give me back!" 　　The crowd was shocked speechless, silent. 　　I pushed open the door of the wedding room, colorful lights, the night wind, cold rustling blowing up the red silk wedding dress. 　　I stepped out of the bridal chamber, walked quickly toward the front hall, ring pendant necklace with the rapid footsteps bumping shake. 　　When the servants saw me in my dowry, they were shocked and lost their colors, and they retreated, not daring to stand in the way. 　　The guests in the wedding hall were dispersed, and the attendants were all in disarray, and it was a cold and sparse place to look at. 　　I saw the front of the hall there are several armor and sword warriors, the first one seems to want to break in, was blocked, a time of chaos. 　　"General armor wearing a sword in the body, the sword is a great evil, can not be close to the cave, please general stop." 　　"The last general was ordered by the king to make sure to report to the princess face to face." The voice of the man in military uniform was strong and unsympathetic. 　　I stood in the hall and said in a cold voice, "Who seeks an audience?" 　　The front of the hall was quiet, all the people were shocked to turn back to their heads, and they all froze when they saw me. 　　That a person in armor, actually not kneeling, only press the sword low head, towards the inside owes a report: "the end will Song Huai En seeks to see the princess, the matter is urgent, the king commanded a should be from the right, please forgive the end of the armor in the body." 　　I looked at him coldly, "What does the Yuzhang King command?" 　　The man was silent for a moment, and said in a hard voice, "Your Highness, His Highness has received a letter from the border, urgently informing the Jizhou Assassin of the rebellion, leading the Turks to violate the border, the three towns have lost their defense, and the northern border is in a hundred thousand times of fire. His Majesty immediately returned to the division to pacify the chaos, there is no time to Wangfei face to face resignation, specially sent subordinates to tell, to be victorious back to the dynasty, His Majesty when to Wangfei please sin. The big picture is important, I hope the princess to forgive." 　　Good Yuzhang Wang, his own leave without saying goodbye, under the command of a small general also hard voice and hard to bully the door, really arrogant. 　　My father is right, these rough martial artists, who have no respect for the royal family, are arrogant to the extreme. 　　I was in the midst of tigers and wolves - this was the general's family I had married into. 　　The night breeze passed through my clothes, and I clenched my fists, sparks erupting from the ashes of despair in my heart and burning into a blaze. 　　I walked slowly toward the door and stood in the light of the bright candles. 　　The phoenix crown pressed against my neck was raw and painful, and I could not bear it, they voiced the big picture and asked me to forgive them. 　　"Good, both for the big picture from the right, this body of false rituals also do not need!" 　　I raised my hand to remove the phoenix crown, with all my strength to the ground fling - phoenix crown smashed to the ground, broken splash a ground pearl, celluloid jade piece also fell to the fragmented bloom cracks, dripping beads splash jumping in all directions, hitting this class of martial arts on the leather boots, splash to the iron armor on the sword, the sound of the crunching of the spirit unceasingly. That person was stunned, see me angrily throw the phoenix crown, sideburns messy hair standing in front of the hall, actually do not know to bow his head to avoid, his eyes fixed straight in my face. 　　I met his gaze with anger. 　　His gaze trembled the moment it touched my eyes. 　　"I am terrified!" 　　He lowered his head and knelt down towards me with one knee bent. 　　A few people behind him followed suit, their cold, hard iron armor scraping and scratching with a clanking sound. 　　The surrounding servants of the royal household also fell to their knees in fear, calling out for the princess to rest her anger. 　　I coldly looked around the people kneeling in front of me, and finally my eyes stared at this body of iron armor glittering with cold light, kneeling like a stone carving on the body of the military, this is the King of Yuzhang's personal guards, and he said that his name is Song Huai'en. 　　His lord, my good man, used such a way to let me learn the domineering and powerful nature of King Xiao Qi of Yuzhang. 　　I restrained my hands from trembling and removed the tassel that bound my hair. 　　Once a woman is married, she will tie up her hair with a five-colored tassel, and on the wedding night her husband will take off the tassel himself, which is called tying the hair②. 　　"Tying the hair as husband and wife, love without doubt." I laughed instead of being angry, and raised my hand to throw the five-colored tassel at Song Huai'en's feet, "Marriage is the foundation of propriety and righteousness; it serves the clan and the temple above, and succeeds the generations to come, so a gentleman should be prudent in beginning and ending the marriage! Please ask the general to pass this to the king and tell him on my behalf that this tassel of marriage, I've done it for him ③!" 　　The bridesmaids were in a panic to dissuade them, saying outright that it was unseemly in terms of etiquette and unlucky for the people. 　　"King Yuzhang is a great hero, naturally auspicious, I have met a good man, married into the family of a general, why is it unlucky?" I laughed coldly, my new son-in-law has left and the phoenix crown has been dropped, what difference does it make if I take off my tassel or not, and if I tie my hair or not. 　　"The last general would not dare, please Wangfei take back this thing, the last general will since the Wangfei heart to convey the king, hope Wangfei precious." 　　Song Huai'en bent his head to pick up the five-colored tassel, and offered it with both hands, and the last sentence lowered his voice, no longer the toughness of a moment ago. 　　I smiled and said in a cold voice, "General dares to enter the wedding hall, but is he still afraid of this trivial matter?" 　　Song Huai En's face turned red, one hand pressed on his sword, and he bowed his head deeply, "I am aware of my sins!" 　　He was not to blame. 　　Looking at this young martial artist kneeling in front of the hall, I did not feel the slightest bit of pleasure. Even if I had frustrated Xiao Qi in front of him, the marriage could not be repented, and his life could not be changed. 　　In the face of this marriage between the clan and the martial arts, the last glimmer of hope in my heart, but also dashed so thoroughly and wretched. 　　For a time, I was miserable and disheartened. 　　I looked towards the boundless thick night in the sky, tilting my head back my hair bun was already loose, a head of long hair draped over both shoulders, hair strands blown by the night wind. 　　"General please return, I won't see you off." 　　I turned around and walked slowly towards the back hall through the wedding hall where bright candles still shone and brocade hung high. 　　The long train of my wedding gown dragged my feet, and with each step, a minute of my strength was used up. 　　This night, I locked myself in the bridal chamber, and did not open the door despite anyone's pleas. 　　Aunt Xu came, my mother, who was sobbing and broken-hearted, came, and my brother and father also came, disregarding the rules of etiquette. 　　I turned them all away, not wanting to see anyone. 　　Ridiculous bridesmaids even panicked and took away all the hard and sharp objects in the room, fearing that I would commit suicide. 　　I'm not sad, I'm not angry, I'm just tired, I'm exhausted. 　　Don't want to force a proud smile on anyone, I just fell on the bed of dragon and phoenix red image gold tassels, wrapped in a brocade wedding dress, coated with a face of rouge and red make-up, looking blankly at the top of the tent with the branches of the acacia, mandarin ducks and geese than the wings, the heart can't say whether it's deserted or cold silence. I covered my chest, as if I could not find traces of beating, my heart only feel empty, as this empty cave, only my own shadow reflected the full of brocade splendor. In the haze, I can vaguely hear, guarding the door of the Jin Er choked to who said, "the county princess rested, and let her sleep, do not disturb her ...... again." 　　Jin Er is very good. 　　I turned sideways and inward, hiding myself in the deep shadows of the Luo curtains, and a hint of warmth flooded my heart. 　　I saw no one in the dream, no parents, no brother, no Zitama. 　　There was only me alone, walking barefoot in the damp, cold mist, unable to see the light or the edge. 　　Notes: 　　① From a poem by He Xun of the Liang Dynasty in the Southern Dynasty. 　　In ancient times, women who got married had the custom of covering their faces with a fan, called "but fan", which was seen in the Jin and Tang dynasties. 　　② "Rituals - Qu Li on" "women are allowed to marry, tassel"; "Rites of Passage - Shi Huangli" "the master into the room, pro off the woman's tassel", tassel as a token of the relationship between husband and wife, after the couple off the tassel evolved into a couple each cut locks of hair knot hair. The poem "Hair Tying for Husband and Wife, Love without Doubt" is a poem by Su Wu. 　　(3) Quoted in Rites of Passage -- The Righteousness of the Faint.