Chapter 12 Love and Hate

　　The curtains move, the sound of pearls and jade rustling, the sound of his footsteps into the inner room, his figure clearly reflected on the bed curtains. 　　My heart is pounding rapidly. 　　He stood silently in front of the bed, through a curtain as if looking at me. 　　The weather in May has been replaced with a light and soft smoke Luo Su curtain, separated from it as smoke. 　　I look at him, vaguely only see the shape; he looked at me, but also afraid not to recognize the face. 　　The maid quietly retreated out, a room quiet, the fragrance of medicine filled. 　　He raised his hand and hesitantly touched the curtain, but did not lift it. 　　I don't know what to do, my heart thumps, holding my breath for a moment. 　　"Princess, I know you have woken up ......," he spoke slowly, "I have a negative to you, can not ask for forgiveness, if you are willing to give me the opportunity to make amends, then please open up; if you can't, xiao mou is no longer disturbed, when you are well, then send you back to the capital to rest. Recuperate." 　　I listened quietly, but the bottom of my heart has been the wind and clouds, such as a rainstorm will come before the suffocation. 　　Not waiting for me to question and reproach, he has already claimed that he "has a burden", the moment he opened his mouth, he put his posture to a low place. I have not yet thought about how to face the past grudges, but he has already set the choice for me - I only need to choose to speak, or silence, choose to forgive, or leave. 　　I separated the Luo curtain, fixedly looking at him, I can not tell the sour taste in my heart, in the end is not hate. 　　He stood in front of the bed, hands in silence waiting. 　　A room of silence, light and shadow, only incense lingering. 　　This is how determined, how overbearing a person, either forgive, or leave, do not allow me to have ambiguity. 　　I should be angry about this, but on the contrary, he gave the choice and I thought of a place, or forgive, or hate, there is no third way to go - there is a tacit agreement to this. 　　He has been standing there for a long time, waiting for me to choose, waiting for me to call him, or to remain silent. 　　Looking at this strange and close figure, I have a thousand emotions in my heart, no way to speak. 　　Instead, he sighed, not hiding his despondency, stood frozen for a moment, turned around and left without a word. 　　"Xiao Qi." I softly called his name. 　　My voice was so low and weak that I couldn't even hear myself. 　　He didn't hear me, striding towards the outer room, about to turn out of the screen. 　　I was annoyed, tried my best to raise my voice, "You ...... stand still!" 　　His figure lurched, stopped his feet, stupefied turn around, "You, call me to stand still?" 　　This sound exhausts the energy, pulls the chest wound, I momentarily pain can not speak. 　　He rushed over with big steps and lifted the bed curtain with his own hands. 　　The light in front of me, I raised my eyes, fell straight into a pair of burning deep eyes - it is this pair of eyes, above the cliff shocked my heart, in the coma to give me endless strength and stability. 　　These eyes are getting darker and darker, so I am lost in thought. 　　I must look so wretchedly ugly at the moment that I can't help but turn my head inward, ashamed to be seen by him. 　　"Don't move." He frowned and leaned down to press my shoulder, hastily summoning the doctor. 　　The doctor came in hurriedly, and the room was full of people busy serving medicine and pouring water, checking the pulse and asking for peace. 　　The maid brought up the medicine, want to help me up into the medicine. 　　He took the medicine with his own hands, sat on the side of the couch, and carefully lifted me up, letting me lean on his chest. 　　The unfamiliar but strong man's scent surrounded me, and even through the sash, I could vaguely feel his body heat. 　　"Is that comfortable?" He held my shoulders and gazed down at me, his gaze gentle and focused. 　　My face burned, and I dared not look at him with my eyes downcast. 　　He smiled, "You and I have long been married, there is no need to be shy and formal." 　　Why an injury will become so timid, a moment of dark annoyance, arrogance rise, look up to him ...... finally saw him clearly, thick eyebrows flying, deep eyes and thin lips, not angry from the authority, but also a Xuan Ang extraordinary great man. 　　"See clearly?" He looked at me, not hiding his teasing. 　　I even behind the ears also hot up, only that my face is already red, so generous to see him from head to foot. 　　"How?" He looked at me with a smile. 　　I faintly turned my head and said, "There are not three heads and six arms." 　　He laughed aloud and handed the bowl of medicine to my lips, watching me drink on one side and patting my back on the other, his hand was extremely light and clumsy. 　　I lowered my head to drink the medicine, behind me felt the warmth of his palm, heart for some reason, soft, like collapsing a place. 　　The medicine tasted pungent, I frowned and finished it, turned my head, "Where's the honey cheese?" 　　"What?" He was stunned, I also stayed ...... at home in the past, my mother knew that I was afraid of bitterness, every time I drank the medicine, always immediately handed over the honey cheese made from snow lotus and bee syrup. But here where to find, remembering my mother, father and brother, remembering all the things at home, I bowed my head, tears indisputably surged up. 　　Tears slid down my cheeks and splashed on the back of his hand. 　　All the way dangerous, life hangs in the balance of the moment, have not shed a tear ...... and at this time, in front of him, I was stupid to shed a tear. 　　He put down the medicine bowl, reached out to wipe my tears. 　　I look down to avoid, the end of the eye is still his fingers stroked, vaguely feel the hard callus of the finger rubbing. 　　He softly said: "good medicine is bitter, sleep and wake up better, will not hurt." 　　The taste of medicine in the mouth is still pungent, but my heart is not so sour, gradually feel warm and stable. 　　"Sleep." He put me back on the pillow, holding my hand, thick warmth from his palm through. 　　I was in a trance, I don't know if it was the medicine kicking in or just a momentary illusion, but before my eyes, I saw the tiny Zi Tantan, just like when I was young, crouching at the edge of the couch, standing on his tiptoes, reaching out to touch my forehead, and leaning over to whisper into my ear, "Ah Charming Sister, get well soon." 　　I opened my eyes, but saw Zi Tan's face gradually blurring into Xiao Qi's eyebrows. 　　The person stroking my forehead and holding my hand tightly at this moment was the husband and son-in-law I had married for three years but had first met, and it would never be Zi Tan again. 　　Sourness hit my heart, harder than the pain. 　　In the days that followed, I slept all day under the effect of the medicine, my internal injuries getting better with each passing day. 　　Occasionally, when I was awake for a moment, I would expect to hear news of Xiao Qi from the maidservant. 　　However, he has not come back since he left that day. 　　Only the general called Song Huai'en, every day was ordered to come to ask the medical service, my situation back to Xiao Qi, only to say that the king is busy with military affairs, I want me to rest ...... I was silent in response, I can not tell the heart of the obscure taste, whether it is a loss. 　　Perhaps the original should not have expectations, perhaps nothing has changed, he is still him, I am still me. 　　I just want to know whether the capital has gotten the news of my escape and whether my parents are at ease. 　　Furthermore, I would like to know the whereabouts of Helan Zhen. 　　That day when Helan Zhen broke his wrist and fell off the cliff, the tragic scene was as vivid as before my eyes. 　　When I jumped down with him, I was filled with the hatred of dying with him. 　　I think I hate him, the humiliation and torture along the way, all thanks to him, so far scarred, by his slap of internal injuries have not yet healed. Coma nightmare, from time to time to see that the white clothes slovenly figure, see him covered in blood, fell into the bottomless abyss. So high cliff, and was chopped off his wrist ...... think at this moment, he is already a pile of white bones. 　　However, he was furious under the palm, did not put enough ruthless, in the end, mercy. 　　Every time I think of that palm, think of the day all sorts of, hate does not feel fade away, leaving pity. 　　That day, so many people died. 　　First of all, the bloody killings on the school field, followed by the mountain stacks, the pursuit of the road, Xiao Qi killed three people in a row, pierced through the throat of the arrow, the head of the body separated from the head, the broken arm, hot blood ...... ever since I was born, I have never seen, want to have never thought of this kind of scene. 　　Once upon a time in the imperial garden deer hunting, the first deer was shot by my brother and offered to the imperial court. Crown Princess Xie Wanru saw the dead deer, just one glance and fainted. The Emperor sighed and called the Crown Princess benevolent, but my aunt was not impressed. 　　Think, I must be unkind and generous, witnessing such bloodshed also did not faint. 　　The imperial envoy colluded with the remnants of Helan to hijack the princess, assassinate the king of Yuzhang, failed and died - such a big event, the court shook, the capital is only afraid to have already set off ten thousand stormy waves. Xiao Qi will be how to report, how my father will respond, aunt and how to deal with? 　　Although I was dazed, but the heart is awake and understand, before and after all sorts of things, over and over again to think, vaguely feel the evil, seems to have a very significant relationship hidden in it. I do not know anything, by them inside and outside together in the dark. 　　Xiao Qi did not come, I can only to the side of the medical service maidservant inquiries. 　　But all these people would only answer a few words over and over again, either "slave servant obeys the order" or "slave servant doesn't know, slave servant deserves to die". 　　Only a round-faced, wide-eyed little girl, young and lively, can occasionally accompany me to gossip, but also just ask and answer. 　　Under the boredom, I miss Jin'er more and more. 　　After the robbery in Hui Zhou, I was separated from her, and I don't know whether she stayed in Hui Zhou or was sent back to the capital. 　　At night, I leaned on the bed reading, do not feel tired, just sickly eyes closed, I heard a piece of kneeling outside. 　　The sound of boots went straight into the inner room, and Xiao Qi's voice sounded outside the screen, "Has Wangfei slept?" 　　"Reporting back to His Majesty, Wangfei is still reading." 　　His sudden arrival momentarily caused me to be a bit flustered, not knowing how to respond, hastily putting down the book and closing my eyes to fake sleep. 　　"What is this about?" Xiao Qi's footsteps stopped outside. 　　"Your Majesty, the slave girl is about to change the medicine for the princess." 　　"Give me the medicine." Xiao Qi paused and added, "All retire." 　　The maids withdrew from the inner room, and the quiet room was even quieter to the point where even every breath was clearly audible. 　　The bed curtain was lifted, he sat on the edge of the bed, and I was close at hand. 　　I closed my eyes, but still feel his compelling gaze. 　　A cold shoulder, the coverlet was actually lifted, he lifted the neckline of my close-fitting centerpiece, his fingers touched the shoulder and neck injury. 　　His fingers and my skin touch, provoke me to shiver, the whole body blood seems to instantly rushed to the brain, cheeks hot hot hot. In my ears, I heard his low voice laughing and teasing, "So someone can blush even when they are asleep?" 　　I opened my eyes and was burned by his gaze, from my cheeks to my whole body was like fire. 　　Embarrassed, I dodged his hand and pulled up the coverlet to shield my chest. 　　He laughed recklessly and looked at me, then suddenly his gaze flinched and reached out to catch my wrist. 　　I frowned in pain, the bruises on my wrists were made painful by his grip. 　　Xiao Qi's smile on his face converged, and asked in a cold voice: "They tortured you?" 　　"Just flesh wounds, not much." I drew back my hand and raised my eyes to see his gaze as frost, killing aura intimidating. 　　My words could not be said again, as if frozen by the cold air. 　　"Let me see." Xiao Qi suddenly swept over me and brushed aside my lapel. 　　I was so stunned that I forgot to resist under his biting gaze. 　　Under the swaying shadows of the lamp, my skin was suddenly exposed in front of his eyes, with only a small piece of close-fitting blouse, as if it was nothing. 　　Seeing that I do not have more injuries, the knot in his brow only loosened, will be my lapel cover, faintly said: "Nothing is good, if he tortured you, the seventeen Helan people do not need to leave a whole body." 　　He said carelessly, I listened to the heart and soul are deterred, stunned for a moment, only to ask him in a low voice, "those Helan dead, you have chased and won?" 　　I remember that day, he promised Helan Pro, the three armies do not pursue. 　　"District bandits, why need to labor the three armies?" He said blandly, "The Turk's men have long been at the border, will they let them pass?" 　　"Isn't Helan Pro the son of a Turkic king?" I was stunned. 　　Xiao Qi smiled, "Not bad, but unfortunately, the Turkic people also have a capable Kulan prince - Helan Zhen's subordinate brother, the nephew of the Turkic king." 　　"You with the Turkic ...... people," I was so shocked that I froze, covering my mouth and not daring to say the second half of the sentence. 　　How can one believe that Xiao Qi, the king of Yuzhang, who has fought viciously with the Turk for many years, would cooperate with an enemy prince? 　　But the gray-clothed man followed all the way, according to the theory can only detect the whereabouts, may not be able to learn about the plans of Helan Zhen. It turned out that the real insider was one of their own people, and the one who betrayed Helan Zhen was his brother, the Prince of Kulan, with whom he had a dispute over the throne. 　　For a moment, I shuddered. 　　He Lan Zhen thought that he had an envoy as a mole, but he never thought that Xiao Qi would join hands with Prince Kulan. 　　Every ring is a calculation, every place is a killing opportunity, who is wrong step, is shattered to pieces. 　　What kind of terrible trap are they living in? 　　I gazed at Xiao Qi and realized that his eyes were so deep that I couldn't see anything. 　　He also stared at me, "Are you afraid of me?" 　　A pair of eyes that were still cold just now were like deep snow melting. 　　When I saw him leading 500 iron horsemen into the Chaoyang Gate, I was afraid. 　　Now I have experienced life and death with him, and I have seen him kill people in front of my eyes. 　　I raised my eyebrows to look at him, past events floated to my heart, all kinds of flavors. 　　"I hate you." I pursed the corners of my lips, but behind the ear is hot. 　　His gaze froze, then he smiled, "I am indeed hateful." 　　Without even a word of defense to excuse himself, he just admitted it, and I was momentarily speechless. 　　"Do you have something to say to me?" I bit my lip, my heart was a little soft, things have come to this, let's give each other a step. 　　"What do you want to know?" He asked me back. 　　A mouthful of anger in my chest surged up, I was extremely angry, and turned my eyes to see him smiling brightly, and there was a burning light on his entire body. 　　Back then, on the night of the cave, leaving without saying goodbye, he had always owed me an explanation. 　　I don't care what he can make up for, but this explanation, at stake is my dignity, and my family's dignity. 　　Geng Geng for three years, what I can't let go of the most, is this bite of will. 　　I looked at his smile and laughed in anger, slowly saying, "I owe you something, and now I'm returning it to you." 　　Xiao Qi was slightly stunned, his smile did not diminish, "What is it?" 　　I moved closer to him, raised my eyebrows and smiled lightly, waving my hand and slapping it. 　　This brittle slap, using all my strength, slapped him on his left cheek in an unbiased manner. 　　He received this slap, did not dodge, burning eyes forced me, face gradually showed reddish fingerprints. 　　"This was supposed to be given to you on the wedding night, I didn't realize I owed it for so long." I look straight at him, palm of my hand hot and spicy, the heart is free, the pent-up anger for a long time, finally vented out. 　　"Many thanks, Your Highness, now we are clear." The corner of his lips slightly pull, hold my hot pain in the palm, turned over to look at a glance, see the palm of the red and swollen, seemingly smiling non-smile, "old injuries have not gone, and add new injuries." 　　I can't break free, but I see his gaze sliding down from my face, moving to his chest - steeply noticing that my bodice is half-open, a large portion of snow-white skin on my chest is seen in his eyes. 　　"You, turn your head!" I was humiliated and embarrassed, but my hands were controlled by him, and I couldn't half break free. 　　He circled me with one hand and picked up the ointment with the other, "If you move again, you'll have to strip naked to apply the medicine." 　　I believe that he can do what he says, so I bit my lip hard and didn't dare to move. 　　He dipped his finger into the ointment and carefully applied it to the trauma on my shoulder, neck and wrist. The injuries have already healed, do not feel how painful, his fingers stayed on my skin, slowly pressing and rubbing the ointment, bringing up a piece of itchy ...... favor, he also looked at me with a smile. 　　The maid never had this much trouble with the medicine, he was deliberately teasing me. 　　I stared at him, angry and speechless. 　　He looked at me rather deeply, "So fierce ...... very good, destined to marry into the general's family."